my face

i've got a scary face...
people who've seen my face...
will draw back in fear...
for people who doesn't...
they're probably used to it...
and they're just too blind to see...

i will usually wear a mask out...
which look exactly like my own face...
yet with it...nobody will be able to see the real me...
only then...
people will be willing to talk or communicate with me...
i used to stare out of the window...
trying to find myself...
i've walked long distance to find myself...
and forgetting that i'm just here...

i'm not really sure of the reason why i do so...
i've stood in corners...
not caring about what is happening around me...
i've walked out on everyone's sight...
struggling to understand the answers to my questions...
the mystery remains the same...

* actually..i'm not really sure whta m i looking for...is just that i don't know what to write...

Oscar Now !!!! ( 9.42AM, 6th March 2006 )

i'm following Oscar Live on the internet now...
i'll be updating my blog every moment... in order to view results..just refresh d page

the awards already given out are :
best supporting actor award - george clooney ( syriana )
best achievement in visual effects - king kong ( dudes are : joe letteri, brian ven't hul, christian rivers, richard taylor

ok~ the rest shall be updated soon~

9.51AM
the awards given out are :
best animated short film - the moon and the son - john canemaker & peggy stern
best animated featured film of the year - wallace & gromit, the curse of the were-rabbit ( steve box & nick park )
best short film ( live action ) - six shooter ( martin mcdonagh
best achievement in costume design - memoirs of geisha ( coleen atwood )

10.04AM now
the award given out is best achievement in make-up - the chronicles of narnia : the lion, the witch and the wardrobe ( howard berger, tami lane )

10.11Am now
best supporting actress - rachel weisz ( the constant gardener )

10.42Am
best achievement in art direction - memoris of geisha ( john myhre, gretchen rau )
best documentary - marche de l'empereur, la ( luc jacquet, yves darondeau )
best documentary ( short subjects ) - a note of triumph, the golden age of norman corwin ( corrine marinnan, eric simonson )

11.03AM
best achievement in music written for motion pictures, original score - brokeback mountain ( gustavo santaolalla )

11.13AM
best achievement in sound - king kong ( christopher boyes, michael simanick, michael hedges, hammond peek )

11.28AM
best achievement in music written for motion picture, original song - hustle & flow ( jordan houston, cedric coleman, paul beauregard )

11.37AM
best sound editing - king kong ( mike hopkins, ethan van der ryn )

11.44AM
best editing - crash ( hughes winborne )

11.52AM
best actor - phillip seymore hoffman ( capote )
best foreign film - tsotsi ( gavin hood, south africa )

11.57AM
best cinematogrphy - memoirs of geisha ( dion bebbe )

12.04PM
best actress - reese witherspoon ( walk the line )

12.12PM
best screenplay originally adapted from any publisher - brokeback mountain ( larry mcmurtry, diana ossana )
best screenplay orignally written for the movie - crash ( paul haggis, robert moresco )

final update
best director - ang lee ( brokeback mountain )
best film of the year - crash ( paul haggis, cathy schulman )

78th Annual Academy Awards - Nominee List

Best Movie
Brokeback Mountain
Munich
Capote
Crash
Good Night & Good Luck

Best Directing
Brokeback Mountain - Ang Lee
Capote - Bennett Miller
Crash - Paul Haggis
Good Night & Good Luck - George Clooney
Munich - Steven Spielberg

Best Actor
Brokeback Mountain - Heath Ledger
Capote - Phillip Seymore Hoffman
Hustle & Flow - Terrence Howard
Walk The Line - Joaquin Phoenix
Good Night & Good Luck - David Straithairn

Best Actress
Mrs Henderson Presents - Judi Dench
Transamerica - Felicity Huffman
Pride & Perjudice - Keira Knightly
North Country - Charlize Theron
Walk The Line - Reese Witherspoon

Best Supporting Actor
Crash - Matt Dilon
Syriana - George Clooney
Brokeback Mountain - Jake Gyllenhaal
Cinderella Man - Paul Giamatti
A History of Violence - William Hurt

Best Supporting Actress
Junebug - Amy Adams
Capote - Catherine Keener
North Country - Frances McDormand
The Constant Gardener - Rachel Weisz
Brokeback Mountain - Michelle Williams

Best Animated Feature
Tim Burton's Corpse Bride
Howl's Moving Castle
Wallace & Gromit in the Cusre of the Were-Rabbit

Best Art Direction
King Kong
The Memoirs of a Geisha
Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire
Good Night & Good Luck
Pride & Perjudice

Best Cinematography
Brokeback Mountain
The Memoirs of a Geisha
Good Night & Good Luck
Batman Returns
The New World

Best Costume Design
The Memoirs of a Geisha
Charlie & the Chocolate Factory
Mrs Henderson Presents
Walk The Line
Pride & Prejudice

fucktarts

do ya know what is a fucktart??

let me give u a lesson or two...fucktarts are basically people who doesn't take undang before they got their driving license or maybe they've taken yet just too ignorant to even bother to remember it...they've probably paid the fucking JPJ some rasuah to ensure they will get their driving license,thus the end result is that we have so many twisted and distorted drivers on the road...

i went car-pooling with kokweng this morning...before arriving at his place, i was turning out from the kelana jaya church, i've given my signal indicating that i will be cutting into the left lane, and i was so bloody damn sure that the signal was given long before i wanted to cut in, there's this fucking BMW, yes..you got me right...it's my favourite car...trying to cut out from the most inner left lane..ignoring the fact that he is not allowed to do so...looking at the fact that i have double standard..i was most willing to let that muthafucker do so...but that bastard was like rushing to die..he instantly cut in infront of me without even giving any signal...at that moment...i thought he had actually bang on my car...so i gave him a freakin loud honk~~~~~

i think he must've thought he's some kinda punk of something like that...the next thing i know was that he was slowing down...moving back into the lane where he came from, and he stared at me while winding down his window...the traffic was a mess there..and basically..i can't hear what was that bastard trying to say...but i gave him a good shout " FUCK YOU " back...then drove away...i was really hoping that he will kinda trail me to kokweng's house...we can have a good fight and thus i will be able to release whatever tension or stress i have...

so..there goes my good mood in the morning..thanks to u..beemer bastard...whomever you are..may you be lucky enough to bump into a road bully next time where he will beat you to death...and please bless that your body will be dump on the road..while i will be the next car passing the road and drive over you..ooppsss...

ok...back to what's a fucktart...these kinda people...they don't deserve to be human..we can only call them fucktart..and they will fit perfectly well into the name...thanks

p/s : i have too many swearings in this post..pls don't blame me...i have no where else to let it out..pls forgive me

wedding photojournalist

somehow...
i got obessed with taking pictures...
well...
in a good way...
it kinda lead me down the road where i can become a freelance wedding photojournalist...
i enjoyed looking at the married couple...
with their happy faces...
life ain't that bad anyway...
and the money is kinda good too...
i only work on weekends...
will do my real job on weekdays...
some dudes thinks that i'm cool being a photographer...
i hate the photographer vest...
i will never wear one...
i hope to establish my business as soon as possible...
so dudes out there...
help me get some wedding jobs...

* did i mention that you will get to see lotsa leng luis during wedding dinners??