hey!
life is never gonna be worst than this...
so cheer up will ya?

*super duper long pause*

january 2008 is half way through....and the lunar new year is around the corner
and my car will be sucking dry my wallet again later as it enters the workshop
my life has been upside down and seriously.....there is nothing to mention about it...
i officially certified myself as a no lifer...
or to be more appropriate...i choose to be a no lifer...
nothing seems to interest me anymore...
my self-esteem is getting lower and lower and one day...i will eventually slam my body on the ground and move like a worm...

ar...wait...i forgot to mention...
thanks dad...for the wonderful gift...at least it brightened up my day a little...
and for those wonderful people who got cheated by my icq birthday notification
thanks for the wishes...i can now have another birthday specially for y'all

i will keep telling myself things are gonna be just fine over and over and over and over again
or i am just mere pathetic...and waiting for someone to save me from drowning...
*starts singing....i need a hero~

p/s : taiwan is in such a mess now...their politic is the dirtiest in the world...tsk tsk tsk...politicians are just a bunch of clowns...my neighbour who was a MP was assassinated last friday, see lar...join politic will cost u your life...opposition party will wanna kill you, even your own people will wanna kill you...tsk tsk tsk

pp/s : and oh ya....accio cash!

though i am falling apart
and barely breathing from the pain

but still... i'll like to thank you
for you have been such a big part in my life
to comfort me through emotional turmoils...
to be forgiving with my wrongdoings...
to love me for who i am...
thank you for loving me

some words are not meant to be spoken
just like some lines are not meant to be written

i am quite tired of pretending to laugh like i'm really happy...
and i vaguely remember when was the last time my mind is sane...
i am draining myself dry...physically and mentally...
and i keep telling myself things will be alright sooner or later...

i need to make myself whole again to be a better half...

the best thing of working in arachnid is..i finally get to appear in the photos!
one will never understand how a photographer feels...
when you never get to see yourself in the photos of friends gathering...family events...company's events...yada yada...
and it's almost impossible to use the dslr to cam-whore...
unless you are sure to have arms of arnold schwarzeneggar
but cool people like me don't cam-whore...
i will never do anything like that...coz it will make me not looking macho...
anyways...enough of bullshit here...
yawn...going to sleep...