erahtkdi cnat speel

i am utterly useless
please...
can somebody just smack me in my head?
so i can see or know what i really want...
no words will suffice to convey what i'm feeling now...
as complicated as it can be
it is not me at all

anyways
i've got plans
to drive down to sekinchang early in the morning
and grab some really awesome morning shots of a paddy field...
i've been delaying and postponing it...
such a slagger...
i hate myself