this has not been a good year...
i was discussin with my brother yesterday
and he agreed

tell me why should i believe in YOU?
tell me why should i believe in GOOD and BAD?
coz somehow
in the midst of finding it
judges are blurred...
and the truth has been wiped away like it never existed...

or
is it because of me refusing to believe...
made you punish the people around me
what the fuck

at one point of my life...
i really thought that i've found something...
something that i've always wanted
but somehow...
things are just not like what it seemed
or maybe i'm not making the best outta it...

or maybe i'm just bored at work...
and tired and frustrated....

ya..laugh at me and say that i'm useless...
which is something i won't admit usually

i don't work for long hours...
so i don't deserve the right to be tired...
or frustrated...
but mentally..i am...
i am afraid that i am not up to the standard...
afraid that i can't finish my tasks...
i am even afraid when i go back on time...
as the people in my office stays till night falls...
what is the fucking wrong with me?
............

i guess i'm just a fucking spoilt brat...
and i deserve a few fucking slaps to make me know...
what i want in my fucking life...
and fucking stop complaining...

i wish i knew how to quit you...

i feel like shit because my toilet is leaking..
and it fucking stinks...
and i paid the fucking plumber for not doing a fucking thing to save it...
fuck

have you ever wonder...
how would you look like 20 years later?
i've often thought of that
wouldn't it be scary if i still look the same?
which is something i kinda believe that it will happen

i met my primary school's teacher last weekend
she said she'd recognised me from a distance
i hadn't change much...
it's the same old me at standard 6
just minus the baby fat that i used to have...
and that was like 14 years ago...
and yes..i'm not afraid to reveal my age
i am a proud 26 years old young adult...

i am definitely going for the primary class gathering next chinese new year...
call me a lamer...
but i'm really curious..
and also would like to know how many remained the same ...
like i did...

why do i suddenly smell the fear that has been lurking within me...

let me tell you what is love

love is the feeling that...
you know that someone will be there for you
through thick and thin
wether you like it or not
or wether you notice it or not

i think i know what love is
at my very own context

i think i've been forgetting to bring my passion to work lately
colourless

i want a wacom graphire tablet

wow...
new shuffle
doesn't it makes you drool?
but i've already gotten myself a video...
sigh~

i want a pair of airmax 90

查卡力亚事件最近被媒体炒得满城风雨
当事人还振振有词的给予无数的藉口
政府对于他的惩罚
只是区区的软性辞职

想想若此事发生在咱们身上
也许早就被丢进牢里了

他们耍的这些手段和把戏
真的是有点侮辱了我们的智慧~